Rathna Bai’s English- (Rathna Bayin Aankilam) by Sundara Ramasamy

Sundara Ramasamy

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English Translation of Classic Tamil Short Stories Series - 7

Translated from Tamil:  Saravanan. K

As usual, Rathna Bai wrote a letter in English to her bosom friend Ambujam Srinivasan who was residing in Delhi. She concluded the last paragraph of the letter with these words: ‘If you see this silk saree, you will snatch it away from my hands, hold it on your chest and jump elated,’ it is mine..aiyo..it is for me’. No doubt about it at all. Without any qualms, I could address the person as true artiste who has made it by blending Ratha’ s beauty and Kannan’s flute music. The one who knows how to strew this array of dreams with the mixture of colours must be an artiste anyway’.  When she posted the letter, Rathna Bai could not surmise that the letter had contained the seeds of problems as well. Ambu wrote in her reply, “Rathna…Your English!..How many times I have wondered! Became spell bound, not being able to express what I felt! We had studied together. Hadn’t we? But from where did you get this language? Are letters fit to be memorised? I do it. Sometimes, he repeats the remaining half. When I feel the elegance of your language, I could feel Bharatha Natyam coming through the mind. I am also a college teacher…That too in English. Very thought of it makes me ashamed….it is alright…what sort of spectacular is there in that saree? Get one like that for me too. Two for my colleagues too. When I went to them to show your letter to make them feel inferior- Don’t be afraid; I did not show the complete letter; only some portions- this request came from them. Unnecessary trouble for you.” 

Having completed reading that letter Rathna Bai murmured within herself, “Yes..it is a trouble. She remembered and brought forth before her eyes Ambujam’s well-built body and her reflex behaviour of frequently adjusting the edges of her spectacles with the tip of her left-hand fingers, and muttered, “My dear Ambu! It is a bigger trouble than I think”. “It is a complicated trap…it is a complicated trap” her mouth mumbled in English.  

Milton had gone disappeared. Such disappearance occurs these days after every meal! 

Not yet even attained the age of seventeen! Within this age, this habit! Adding to the woes, a small shop has also come nearby. “It is ok…from where does the money come? It seems that he must have stolen it from his father. When father could steal it from mother, then what could be wrong in that? Rosy and Mary had gone for tailoring class. Both of them were not good at studies. Despite being daughters of Rathna Bai teacher, the reputation they could earn at school was nothing but insults for being poor in studies. Both elder sister and younger sister were failing consecutively each year. “Shame …shame”, Rathna Bai muttered. “Are they my children? No…not at all. They are Jonson’s Children. Daughters of a hunter. Children of a man who plucks out the aching tooth painfully without making it numb with an injection! His ever-permanent reddened eyes with the colour of blood! His hulking hands! His dark hair on chest and hands like the one that grows on bears! O…God! Why do you ingest such a loath into my mind?”, Rathna Bai helplessly prattled. “How did I become this unlucky? Mother used to say it was all because of the people’s jealousy in their belly!” 

She was told that when her mother Meera Bai took her out along with her, every man and a woman who happened to see her would burn with jealousy in their belly and Rathna Bai’s beauty had induced an intolerable feeling of jealousy in them. This was how Meera Bai used to argue.   

“How long could I linger to write a reply to Ambu? One more letter has come. “Have you forgotten me Rathna…? Isn’t holiday? Is it? Or any misunderstanding?” 

Rathna Bai got up and went upstairs. An old man was sitting on the floor in the terrace. Bald headed. He was wrapping his neck encircling his cheek with a dirty towel. His constricted, recessed eyes were sunk in the swelling of cheeks. The face was totally red in colour. When Rathna Bai appeared in front of him, he showed the door which was kept closed in upstairs and signalled, ‘Please tell him to attend”. Rathna Bai’s face burst with anger. She knocked at the door so gently with the tip of her fingers. The door was not opened. She forcefully pushed it, opened it and entered. Jonson was lying there on the floor utterly untidy with his lungi open, head on the big iron wheels of the tooth filing machine near the chair which was used for patients to sit. “What a disgust! Are you not ashamed of it?”, Rathna Bai was yelling at him. “I will kick you with my leg”, she shouted. A mild mumbling came out. “I need some money. It is urgent. I could return it in ten-fifteen days or so.”, she told. The same mild mumbling rose again. “I have come to you seeking a help from you. I have become mad. Ain’t I? Have you ever moved even your little finger for my sake?” she was speaking in English. It looked as if one character in a drama was animating. It appeared to Rathna Bai that the old man had got up from his place and standing behind the door. “Why should it appear to me that such thing had happened behind the closed door? Was it because more senses are working to their limits? Or was it because of the arrogance of imagination? Have all my astuteness, gentleness, elegance and divine playfulness been plundered by boorishness? She went to the door, opened it imagining that if the old man was standing at the door, her actions would be turn partly fortunate and if he was not standing there all the things would remain unchanged. The old man was found sitting at the same place. 

Rathna Bai entered again and shouted in high pitch, “Do the things I say fall in your ears? The same mild mumbling rose again. Once the face turned a bit, the saliva was seen flowing at the corner of his mouth. “Just an animal…Animal….worse than an animal” her mouth mumbled. She opened a small wall-embedded shelf, took out two tablets from a bottle and came to the old man. “Swallow this and sit here” telling him this, she came down through the stairs. 

Rathna Bai thought what would happen if she could finish off everything at once now itself. Her mind was filled with the thought of writing a letter to Ambu today itself and how she should form appropriate words for appropriate situations. Closing the entrance door, Rathna Bai came inside. She closed the staircase door as well which connected upstairs with the hall. Now, it became fully dark. She switched on the light. Lathered the soap in both the hands and removed her bangles. She looked at her face in the mirror, pushed the grey hair inside, pulled black strands out and threw above the head. “The time sits on the horse and attacks me”, she talked to herself in English. “Do you know that I was an extremely beautiful woman twenty-five years ago?” she asked as if she was addressing a court. She kept the bangles in a hand bag, came to the street and walked.  

Twenty five years ago, Rathna Bai walking along with her mother in the street was actually a very important event in the life of young men of that time. Getting disappointed after waiting to see her and seeing her unexpectedly without waiting for her were important news of the young men’s world.  Meera Bai would be walking along with Rathna Bai without a gap between them with the face brimming with pride as if telling how her paragon was looking like and at the same time with the face full of worries as if telling that how she was going to save her treasure from all of them. Very often, she used to tell the people that some doctors and engineers had sent their proposal to marry her daughter and it was she who was not yet made up the mind to take decision in this regard. Whether it was true or not, no one knew. Nevertheless, Rathna Bai received so many love letters by post. Rathna Bai’s mother used to receive them from the post man. She would open them and read it. Being happy, she would keep them in her custody privately. In our village, many young men from well-to-do families had written love letters to her. Since it was a widespread news that Rathna Bai was having a strong penchant for English Language, every one tried their best to write those love letters inserting all possible hard vocabulary they were aware of and appended along with it some English poems they knew. Meera Bai Teacher was calculating relentlessly in her mind that which selection could be a brilliantly prudent one among all those boys who had written love letters. This had grown into a serious problem in her mind without the knowledge of her daughter. However, as the days passed by, the enormity of this problem had started decreasing. The reason behind it was many of the boys who wrote love letters to Rathna Bai had either got married to their uncle’s daughter or aunt’s daughter or any other girl from relatives arranged by their parents after their studies and got settled either in Bomaby or Calcutta. If Meera Bai happened to see any one of those boys returning to our village along with their wives during vacation, she used to tell Rathna Bai that night, “The son of that Peacock House owner was going with his wife. I saw that. It would have been better had he married a black monkey”. “Shameless fellow” she would spew out irritation. “Mother! It is his wife. It is none of our business to be concerned about how she looks. I don’t like gossips”, Rathna Bai would tell her. 

“Only because of your short wits, no one came forward to marry you.”- her mother would burst out in anger. 

“It is not your problem. It is mine”- Rathna Bai would reply in English. 

Rathna Bai could not pursue English in M.A like many of her close friends. “What is the use of us studying this? It should be you who must have studied further” her friends used to tell her. 

“Why are you getting bothered by the shouts of creditors? They would shout; You should study. I will take care of your education” Meera Bai Teacher said. Stubbornly she pursued B.A and became a teacher.

‘The day I could not study M.A was actually the beginning of my tragedy.’ Rathna Bai had to utter this English sentence many times later. Now her face had started showing the signs that she was ageing. Unable to bear with the queries from her known friends, ‘have you found any match?’, Meera Bai Teacher reduced the frequency of venturing out. Now she could feel that those queries had a mild sarcasm in them. “Hasn’t any doctor become lucky yet?”, her colleagues were asking Meera Bai. “You have made my marriage as a social consciousness. It is the biggest harm you have done to me” Rathna Bai told her mother. 

“These days I am unable to understand what you talk. You talk like a stranger”, Meera Bai Teacher told her. 

When Rathna Bai went to school every day, she used to see Jonson on the way. He used to stand in front of the dental hospital happily, putting on his lungi. When she was going to her school in the morning, he could be found trying to start his old model small car. Four or five children would be pushing it from behind. Once the car started, all the children would open the car door and get into it falling on each other. The car would take a round and stop in front of the hospital. “That deed- the simplicity found in it-the way those poor children treated you with affection-I loved you for all these” Rathna Bai told this to Jonson in English on the night of the day their marriage took place. “Your English is more beautiful than you” Jonson told her.

Within weeks, Rathna Bai could understand that it was impossible to share her life with Jonson any more. He drank liquor every day. Whenever he had opportunity, he went out with his friends for hunting. Rathna Bai was so sure that sentiments like wife and house did not find place in his blood. “I am a scoundrel. You can’t control me. If you are an aristocratic lady, you go and stay with your mother”, Jonson would shout at her under intoxication. 

“I have got cheated as I thought that you are a simple person. How life gets so horrible!” Rathna Bai would say. 

“I hate your English” Jonson would shout. 

She received an unexpected news from the bank on that day. They will give credit on gold mortgage only on Wednesdays. Rathna Bai went to cloth store. She thought of selecting some silk sarees and giving a small token amount as advance so that she could come again to collect those sarees after paying off the remaining amount once she got the money from the bank. When the sales boys came in front of her, she told them, “I need that same type of saree which I purchased that day”. She was feeling guilty. She talked to herself, “O God! Why am I talking like this? Have my senses gone awry? The sales boys looked perplexed. They came one by one and looked at her closely. “Who gave that saree on that day?”, the shop owner’s tenor changed. Ratna Bai thought herself in English, ‘How can they display the saree which I have not purchased? Punishing them beyond this point won’t be in good taste for a lady like me’ and told them, “Please show some good quality varieties”. ‘I have lost my senses. Have I started believing imagination as real? The boys went inside the room to bring silk sarees. “Truly speaking, I shouldn’t have written like that. That too My dear Ambu”, Rathna Bai was speaking to herself. I happened to read that English poem inadvertently. It was a wonderful poem. Every word of it resembled like gem stone fixed in a diamond stud. Some of the words in it had caused an inexplicable spell in Rathna Bai. It appeared to her that if she described a silk garment by using those words, the description would be marvellous. She could not control herself from immediately writing about that description on the day and at that time itself to Ambu. “It is a dangerous trap anyway” Rathna Bai muttered. “That said, why am I telling that I had purchased a saree which actually I had not? Why? Rathna…tell…why?” Rathna Bai was asking it herself. They displayed the sarees at the counter. “Which one to be selected? Ambu..which one you like? Which ones your friends like? Will my selection make your friends say, ‘your friend is a genius in English. We do accept. But in the selection of sarees, she is still a poor wit?’ Or will they say that her taste in English has got deeply reflected in the selection of sarees too? If I want them to speak the latter sentence, which is the saree do I have to select? Why do English words come to me fantastically today? Has the time arrived to write a lengthy letter to Ambu?’ Rathna Bai selected three sarees. She gave a small token amount as advance to the shop owner, told him she would come on Wednesday morning to give the remaining amount to pick up the sarees. She left the shop. 

That night, Rathna Bai wrote a lengthy letter to Ambu. She wrote in the last paragraph, ‘I have sent the sarees. For you and your friends. I have even imagined that you and your friends are standing in front of the college (its outer wall was erected with stones). Let me tell you one thing. I would get badly angry if you send the money for your sarees. All you have to give me is only your photograph in that saree. Do not become skinny with the guilty that your friend has incurred loss because of you. Here, the children keep on failing anyway. There is no dearth of tooth ache too.’. Rathna Bai kept reading her letter seven or eight times. She liked it very much. “Language is a wonder. O God! Thank you so much” she said. “Or else nothing is left for me” she uttered. She stood in front of the mirror once again and read that letter with a tiny nuanced expression. 

Rathna Bai, no longer remembered that she had to go to the bank on Wednesday morning.  

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 Translated from Tamil by Saravanan. K 

Source: www.azhiyasudargal.blogspot.com 

 

 

 

Fish Bone - (Mul) by Charu Nivedita

                                   To read the Tamil version of "Fish Bone" click here  

                                    English Translation of Classic Tamil Short Stories Series - 6)

Charu Nivedita

 

Translated from Tamil:  Saravanan. K

It must have been more than fifteen days since the fish bone got stuck in my throat. It must have got stuck while eating fish, due to to which, I wouldn’t even touch fish if they have bones, no matter how tastier they are. Some fishes have bones only in the middle. Just like feather of a chicken. Some fishes have lots of bones in the interiors of its flesh. Karthikai Vaalai, Mullu Vaalai belong to this category of fishes. But there is one fish which does not belong to any of these categories…it is Kola Fish. (Flying Fish). This fish too has middle bone. But one side of the fish will have bones in the flesh and other part will have only flesh. This Kola Fish will not be available throughout the year. It is available only during Vaikasi and Aani months….(roughly in the months of May and June). Once Aadi month nears, arrival of Kola fish would dwindle down. There is a saying to denote this: ‘Once Aadi month comes, Kola would go to its mother’s home’. 

Catching Kola Fish is itself a captivating experience. I had gone into sea in Catamaran just to watch catching Kola fish. No one would use mechanised boats to catch Kola Fish. What is the reason?...One has to travel in the sea at least twenty miles to sixty miles to catch Kola Fish. If Mechanised boats are used, what will be the expenses on diesel to travel that distance?...If six or seven persons get into the sea at 3 ‘O clock in the morning in Catamaran, sometimes, it would take even two days to return. One could catch three thousand fishes to twenty Thousand Fishes in one occasion. They used to take green leaves and grass leaves along with them in Catamaran. They would tie them with wooden square and leave it afloat like an island of Green Leaves. On seeing this ‘Greenery’, kola fish would throng towards it jumping to shoot their eggs in the green leaves. Many a times, one would be able to see the eggs that are sticking to that ‘island’ even after bringing them to shore.  

One more interesting aspect about catching Kola Fish is that the net will not be ‘thrown’ to catch it. This is the only fish which is caught by identifying it by naked eyes. A lampara type of net is used to catch it. One needs to keep moving with that lampara net open and can collect the fishes falling inside. This type of fishing net is unsophisticated one. Sometimes, not even a single Kola Fish could be caught. The reason for this is Burla Fish. Whenever these Burla Fish comes, not a single Kola Fish would come to that spot. There is a belief that Kola Fish will be available in plenty during full moon day. For them, Kola Season is their ‘harvesting’ season. A person would be able to earn up to even three hundred rupees if he goes to sea to catch Kola Fish. At the same time, one must understand that number of dangerous jobs is indeed low compared to catching Kola Fish. It is said that Fisher folk used to put Vaaikkarisi (Turmeric mixed rice put in the mouth of a person after his death) before sending them to sea for catching Kola fish. Such customs are no more prevalent these days. Once Vaikasi month arrives in, the talk of the town would be only Kola Fish. Even if the wind blows faster, people used to grumble about its speed for its way of throwing sand on their face and mouth. They used to be contempt about the wind as ‘Satanic Kola wind’.  

It has been fifteen days since Uncle and Aunt had arrived in. The time went by faster just like fifteen minutes. It was on the day of their arrival, the fish bone got stuck in my throat. Immediately after their arrival, uncle went out for shopping. He would not touch the food if fish was not served. Among other fishes, Kola Fish was very dear to his heart. It was on that day the fish bone was stuck when I was having meals with him. After that, I never touched fish. The very thought of fish bone kills all my interest in fishes. My aunt won’t eat fish. Whenever she ate fish upon being compelled by us, she wouldn’t miss out vomiting it out after the meals. My aunt was just opposite. Aunt was passionate about reading books. But if my uncle was known to have read something, it would be nothing but weekly almanac. Even in writing too, uncle was prudent like reading. I have been keeping all the letters written by aunt safely. Do you know how many times I have read all those letters that were filled with poetic exuberance? But what about Uncle! He would open his pen either just to write his signature or write a letter to his mother (His letter would be like this…Respected Mother! This is a letter from your son! I am alright here. Please inform about your well-being. I will be coming there on coming 10^th. Nothing more to share. Thank you…) I understood that he used to write letter to his mother by dictating it to my aunt. Later, his mother wrote a letter to him. ‘Don’t you have time to write a letter to me? Don’t make your wife write letter to me anymore. In case you wish to write a letter, please write it with your own hands’. Only after getting harsh scolding from his mother, he started writing even this regular letter with his own hand writing. We can enlist such things one after the other…

 “Dei Raja!...I am going out. Will you accompany me?”- my uncle’s unclear voice cut short my thought.  My aunt who came there at that time told him uninvitedly, “Raja is unwell. He won’t come”. 

 “Ok…Ok…keep him locked”-Uncle went out angrily. 

 If Uncle could not wander in the town during evening from six to nine, he would be restless as if his head would break. My aunt was pitiable anyway…How was she able to spend her time alone all the time without becoming mad? These days, I watched one thing from her talk- she was not addressing me with the suffix ‘daa’. Ten years of age difference was big enough anyway. Wasn’t it? But I like that way of being addressed. I felt a soft touch on my forehead, lifted my head. It was aunt. 

“Raja…your forehead is very hot” …telling this, she sat beside me and cossetted my palm into hers. I was ready to be burnt alive for getting this proximity of aunt in the darkness on veranda, let alone temperature on forehead. 

 Both of us did not talk for long. 

 Suddenly aunt asked me “You told that a fishbone had stuck in your throat. Was it removed?”

 I bobbed my head, “No…”

 “Then do what I say…while eating, make a big ball of warm plain rice and swallow it. It will go” 

 I did not reply to this advice. I am thinking why I shouldn’t kiss the hands of my aunt that were holding my hands. But…” 

 ‘What is stopping me from doing that?’

 I have read ‘love has no taboos’. If then, was the feeling I had on my aunt love...? Love…chee…they have abused this word too much in serial stories and cinema. 

 ‘Is it sex-love?’

 No…I could not think like that. It must be a tender devotion. But what could it be its boundary?

 I am getting confused about it unnecessarily. The feeling of love I have for my aunt was not a recent development. Was it?

 That day, I must have been six years old. My aunt used to tease me regularly, “Raja..who are you going to marry?..I used to tell her every time “I will marry only you..it is only you”

 I didn’t forget even a bit of it. 

 “Aunty…I will marry only you. But when I marry you, your hand and skin should not become withered and sagging like grandma. It should be like this…’, I would show her fleshy, rounded hands. 

Aunt would laugh at this and tell my mother. “Did you get what Raja is telling?”. She would narrate everything from the start and repeatedly share my words amidst her incessant laughter. 

I am thinking about it now again. But, why doesn’t aunt ask the same question any longer now?  

Even if aunt asks me who I am going to marry now, will I be able to reply like earlier?  

‘Aunty…I will marry you only because your heart remains same even though your hands are not looking like the way it did fifteen years ago’.  

Due to the sudden deafening barking of street dogs, my sleep got disturbed. I wondered how I came to that place to sleep. I could remember what I was talking to aunty last. However, I could not remember how I came here dozing and slept. How can I sleep after that? It was getting dawn. I was wallowing in the cot for some time and got up. Went to the back yard with brush and tooth paste. While brushing, I could feel the prickling sensation of fish bone in the throat. After brushing, I cleaned my tongue with my thumb. I wouldn’t use tongue cleaner for this. Tongue cleaner can clean only a particular area of the tongue. The interiors of inner tongue cannot be cleaned with tongue cleaner. So the better option that remained was thumb. But, in case of any rough, unpolished finger nail, it could cause bruise in the tongue. Blood along with saliva would come out…then one would be worried with suspicion whether that bleeding was due to tuberculosis or any bruise in tongue. To avoid this, one should keep thumb without any dints. What ever it is, today I have to take out the fish bone somehow. I scooped out with my thumb and little finger one after the other. Nothing came out except good amount of vomit.  

The fish bone still remained there.  

In earlier occasions too, fish bone had stuck in throat. But it never bothered me like this as if killing me alive for fifteen or twenty days. I remember one such funny incident when I was young. That time, I was staying at my grandma’s house. One day they had made roast made of yam for meals. I was not aware of yam at that age. Since it was tastier, I ate too much of it.  Not a minute over the meal was complete, I started yelling ‘aiyo…amma…’. A very intense inching deep in the throat. Without knowing that it was an itching, I was yelling it was a thorn. The servant maid only came to rescue telling that it was due to yam, and thus removed everyone’s fear and assuaged me.  

After taking tiffin I was talking with aunt, sitting inside house. My younger brother told me that someone had come to meet me. Thinking that it could be some unknown person, I came out to see who it was…surprisingly, it was Baby…  

“It is quite surprising to see you here…you used to roam around in the market till 11’O Clock. Don’t you?” 

“I didn’t go to the market. It is alright…come with me up to date palm orchard..” 

“Just wait…I will come in a minute", I went inside.  

I went to aunt and told her, “I need to go out. I will be back soon” 

“Come back soon Raja…” 

Aunt didn't like me to go out at all. But the seriousness seen on the face of Baby!! 

I went out.  

We came to date palm orchard, still talking. The date palm orchard existed there for name sake only. Not a single date palm tree was found there. It must have been a date palm orchard earlier. Now what remained was only its name. We could change its name as tamarind orchard. There were plenty of tamarind trees. We sat under one tamarind tree. He leaned against a big root of the tree and sat like a Chettiar leaning his back on a stone. Initially he started describing his problems slowly and then gained speed and poured out his anguish. The matter was nothing important. His father had a lot of land property. Unlike him who toils in land, his undying desire was to see his son as a doctor. But this fellow did not even pass P.U.C. He was telling that he fell asleep once he picked up Biology or Zoology books. His interest was lying in farming. As he was not interested in pursuing M.B.B.S, his father had started treating him as his arch enemy. Then, there wouldn’t be any scarcity of frequent scuffles between them. Would there be? They had not yet wrestled physically. That was it.  

He was taking many decisions indecisively.  

I changed the topic. “It is alright…I feel thirsty. Let’s go home to have water” 

After drinking water, he asked for a match box and lit a cigarette. But for me, after drinking water the fish bone started causing more discomfort in the throat.  

I felt like vomiting.  

He knew about my problem- a kola fish bone getting stuck in my throat. I have been complaining about this issue anyway all the time. Haven’t I?” 

“Raja…seeing this fish bone getting stuck for such a long time, I suspect whether it was fish bone or something else? Perhaps, it could be hair found in the food.”

My fears started increasing once I heard about hair. He didn’t leave it with that. He added, “It might be your illusion too”  

I became annoyed.  

“I was watching movie along with your father yesterday night. If that was true, how was it possible that you both were fighting yesterday? You must have dreamt. Mustn’t you?” 

I didn’t get angry. My irritation grew more instead. 

“What Raja!...this much late!...You must not go out hereafter. You should be at home till we leave for our home tomorrow” -aunt’s order came before I entered the house.  

“What is the need of being this urgent now? You could leave after five or six days.”  

“What can I do Raja…it is your Uncle who is insisting it” 

“Yes…you are also repeatedly insisting to go to your home. Don’t you?”  

Aunt did not reply to this question.  

I came back to Veranda after taking bath in the well in back yard. Aunt was not there. Thinking that she must be lying in the room, I came there.  

There… 

Aunty was weeping like a child with her body shivering and head placed on the table.  

“Aunty…what is this? …I lifted her head, holding it tenderly.  

“Now, are you satisfied Raja…? Your understanding about me is only this much. Is it not?” 

I hated myself. I had hurt such a soft heart.   

I didn’t remove my hands from her head.  

Still some more minutes only…the house would wear a deserted look… 

Here they are. Uncle and aunt are leaving. I also leave along with them, till Railway station.  

The train would leave at eight. We had reached the station one hour in advance. Younger brother and uncle got a seat near the window. Aunt was standing with me. “Will you write letter frequently?” she asked me and held my hands with hers. Eyes were full of tears! 

I felt like hugging aunt and cry to my heart's content. I controlled my tears that welled up in my eyes, biting my lower lips.  

We didn’t know how long we were standing like that. At once, aunt wiped out her tears, went inside and sat at the seat beside younger brother. He came out of the train. 

I went near to the window and held her hands.  

‘Why shouldn’t I kiss these hands? Should I?’ 

The train started moving slowly. I removed my hands. The train gained speed gradually.  

I could see a hand waving at till the light was visible.  

I came back home, went to my room, switched off the light and sat on the chair.  

A voice of a woman was heard with an elongated tune “ kolaa…kolaa…seven kolaa for a rupee…kolaa”  

I went to the back yard and tried scooping it out with my little finger.  

Only vomit came out.  

What about the fish bone?...  

 

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